I like to feel you draw
Tiny circles on my skin
The way sunlight filters through you
And then to me
It’s almost purifying
Your never-ending touch
That goes on an
Infinite trail of petals
The journey comes to a stop
Only when I give you a kiss
Sometimes when we walk
I also feel the distance
That grows between you and I
When I feel the knots loosen
Around us and tighter in my stomach.
I don’t know what it is
Because you look so perfect
And you smell so decent
And when you speak
You also smile so perfect
I had a list of everything
I ever wanted in a man
And you are more
Than what a list could hold
Yet, this doesn’t feel like what I seek.
I’m scared,
Almost petrified
To think what I’m thinking
Somewhere, I wonder
If you think so too.
And if you do,
Should I be relieved,
Or just be heartbroken
Should we continue our paths
Or intersect for once and separate forever
You wish me morning everyday
Not way too early not way too late
And I love it, don’t get me wrong
But I can’t live it everyday
Am I too wrong?
I go back to my list
And you check every item twice
Is there an option
That I’m unaware of
That answers my why?
The same sunlight that
You filter every morning
Now transforms to
Moonbeams that
Drown me in my sleep
You still smile
That perfect smile
Unaware that I have
Stopped smiling mine
And I leave home
Early one morning
Without saying you bye
You do come after me
But your head’s underwater, as is mine
We dreamed of each other, but dreams can’t be our lives.