Vidhi's Leisure Space


I like to feel you draw
Tiny circles on my skin
The way sunlight filters through you
And then to me
It’s almost purifying

        Your never-ending touch
        That goes on an
        Infinite trail of petals
        The journey comes to a stop
        Only when I give you a kiss

                    Sometimes when we walk
                    I also feel the distance
                    That grows between you and I
                    When I feel the knots loosen
                    Around us and tighter in my stomach.

        I don’t know what it is
        Because you look so perfect
        And you smell so decent
        And when you speak
        You also smile so perfect

I had a list of everything
I ever wanted in a man
And you are more
Than what a list could hold
Yet, this doesn’t feel like what I seek.

        I’m scared,
        Almost petrified
        To think what I’m thinking
        Somewhere, I wonder
        If you think so too.

                    And if you do,
                    Should I be relieved,
                    Or just be heartbroken
                    Should we continue our paths
                    Or intersect for once and separate forever

        You wish me morning everyday
        Not way too early not way too late
        And I love it, don’t get me wrong
        But I can’t live it everyday
        Am I too wrong?

I go back to my list
And you check every item twice
Is there an option
That I’m unaware of
That answers my why?


The same sunlight that
You filter every morning
Now transforms to
Moonbeams that
Drown me in my sleep

        You still smile
        That perfect smile
        Unaware that I have
        Stopped smiling mine

                And I leave home
                Early one morning
                Without saying you bye

                            You do come after me
                            But your head’s underwater, as is mine

                                    We dreamed of each other, but dreams can’t be our lives.

inspired by: my fear of finally finding the perfect person for myself, and unfalling in love because he was perfect, but not right.